Didn't someone once say something about a normal day being a treasure? "Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are." Isn't that so true for a diabetic? A day when everything is normal? Your blood sugars, your work day, your commute to work? Today was such a normal day that I think people wondered why I was so happy about it. Simply because there were no surprises, there was no bad news, work was steady but not crazy, and traffic was good. And for that, I am very grateful.
Since I went back to work last month, my diabetes has been very uncooperative. I took off work for 10 months in order to manage the 3 autoimmune diseases I was diagnosed with last year. It was much easier to manage the diseases when THEY were my full-time job. It's a different story now that I'm working. Last Friday, my endo said my diabetes was becoming more brittle. I feel like I'm losing the war, and the war only started 2 years ago (well, actually 1 year, 9 months ago). Diabetes is a disease where effort does not equal outcome, but I still put every effort into it.
But let's focus on today. Today was a good day. I'm sad to say goodbye to today, not knowing what tomorrow will be. But I'll do tomorrow what I did today, eat breakfast, go to work, drive home, read something uplifting, listen to my Dr. Weil Mind/Body Toolkit CD and maybe make a big pot of chili.
Thank you to everyone who contacted me about my 11/9/11 blog, you lifted up my spirits just when I needed it, in a way that no one else could. I'm so grateful to my online diabetic friends. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I hope everyone has a good tomorrow.
I promise you aren't losing the battle. It's just beginning, and it'll be okay. We all get down, but don't let it rule your life. Do the best you can, and it will be enough. And normal? Totally underappreciated!! : ) Hope you have a normal Thanksgiving! : ) hugs!
ReplyDelete