Every little ailment MUST be related to your disease, right?

Shit my head hurts. I've had this persistent migraine since saturday night/sunday morning-ish, it woke me up around 3:30am. I woke up right after a nightmare, in which a person (I don't remember if it was male or female) was about to pass me walking on the side walk, and in an instant I knew that s/he was going to pull out a long knife out from under his/her open beige trench coat and stab me as s/he walked by. I woke myself up screaming "NOOOOOO!!!!!" Then I checked my blood sugar, and it was 211. Awesome. I needed to pee, but my head hurt so bad that I couldn't get up to go to the bathroom. So I laid there for at least an hour awake, trying not to move my head, with a full bladder. I couldn't hold it anymore and got out of bed, headed toward the bathroom. But my migraine was so powerful that I actually swayed and ran into my dresser (F#@#@&^#(@&#*@^#^!!!!).

For the rest of the day, I laid on the couch, until 4:30pm Sunday night. Too nauseas from the migraine to eat; too painful to get up and do anything. I closed all the blinds in my house and wore my eye covers (see below), listening to the tv on volume level 2. And it seemed LOUD.



Then it went away. Whew!

So this morning I got up and got ready for work. I had an appt with the dermatologist first, to get my skin patch (allergy) test, since my skin has taken turns between hives and eczema spots every where. Despite the BLIZZARD (yes, blizzard) weather we had on my drive to the clinic, I made it there in one piece. Forty-five minutes into the appointment, I looked like this:




I can't shower until Thursday (sorry, co-workers), cause those little patches can't get wet. So afterwards I drove to work. And then my migraine came back. It progressively got worse throughout the afternoon, so I skipped lunch and contemplated whether I'd look weird wearing my sunglasses at my desk. The light above my head suddenly seemed really BRIGHT.

I called my endo and asked him to call in a migraine Rx for me, which he graciously did. So I took it and now I'm just waiting for it to kick in. I hope it will soon, cuz even looking at this computer screen right now is killing me, and I have it muted to the darkest setting.

The awesome thing about having chronic diseases is that you think it causes everything that's wrong with you. I can't help but think that the cause of my migraine is from being glutened, even though I ate at home yesterday and made all my food from scratch. But I start wondering "was the seasoning I bought truly gluten free?" "Maybe it was the sour cream? The new salsa I bought?" Or maybe I got a migraine for an un-related reason. All I know is I mentally equate migraines with ingesting gluten because I get migraines whenever I get glutened. And that's the suckiest part, I'll never truly know what caused this migraine.

Chronic disease makes you a little paranoid. When I don't feel right, I immediately equate it to type 1 diabetes, grave's disease or celiac disease. Even though before I was diagnosed I got colds and stomach bugs like every one else, nowadays I ALWAYS think that it's related to one of my illnesses. If I have a headache, is it from blood sugar? A stomach ache- it MUST be from celiac disease... it certainly couldn't be because I ate too much. Nope. I need to get out of this mode of thinking; it makes me paranoid. Sometimes you can just be sick and it NOT be related to any of your diseases. But I'm not a doctor, so how do I really know?

Do you do this, too? When you get sick, do you automatically assume it's your diabetes or celiac disease (whichever one you have)?

Well, back to the couch, eye covers and the almost-on-mute tv volume. Cheery-O.