Self Improvement.

Over the weekend, I embarked on a self-improvement project. I set some goals for myself; both physical and behavioral, in an effort to improve my overall health-physically, mentally and spiritually.

My physical goals center around incorporating more fitness into my week. I want to feel stronger. For me, it's not about weight, it's about wanting to have a strong body that can support and fight disease. So I joined Team Wild's WildFit training program, which I began today. It's a walk/run program that strategically increases the distance and intensity of your walk/runs. It's a 12-wk program, and my goal is to not miss any training days during these 12 weeks. It's a great program that focuses on fitness and training plans for PWDs. I'm determined to find my inner athlete.

I have a behavioral goal, as well. My issue is that I'm always in a hurry. Rushed. Stressed out because I feel like I'm always running behind on something (Everything!). I identified that I need to SLOW DOWWWWN in every area of my life. Be present in the moment. Slow down my thoughts, my movements, how I drive, how I make decisions, even how I breathe. Just how I move in general. I rushing toward this finish line that is always just out of reach. I think I'm trying to move through my To-Do List, thinking that there is an end to it(there never is). If I could just reach the end of the list, I'd have time to relax, sit down, finish that book I started reading 7 months ago. But I realize that there will always be something to do. I'm working on slowing down my life and enjoying moments while they are occuring. Since this does not come natural to me, it's going to take a lot of effort to do. Even as I woke up this morning, I felt rushed to get out of bed. I woke up, opened my eyes, and immediately began running through all the things I felt I needed to accomplish today. I repeated them so I wouldn't forget them in my half-sleepy state. When I got out of bed, I grabbed a notebook and wrote them down. And I raced through the day to get everything done that I had outlined for myself. Before I knew it, the day was almost over and I'd wondered where it had gone. It was at this point that I realized how big of a challenge changing this behavior was going to be for me. But I'm not going to focus on every mistake I make and instead focus on what I've achieved and learned. No more negative self talk!