I do. In the stationery drawer of my desk is where I keep my secret stash. When you first open it, it looks like any stationery drawer: envelopes, stamps, stationery, even some healthy pumpkin seeds. But buried below the facade is the real gold.
As you can see in the 2nd picture, that's where I hide my gluten free peanut butter cookie, and what's left of a 2 lb bag of peanut M&Ms dumped into a freezer bag. I even included the carb information from the bag so I can bolus correctly.
Why would one hide food? Well, in my case, it's for a couple reasons. The first being out of fear of judgement. Someone will come over and see these sugary, bad-for-you treats and and think to themselves no wonder she has diabetes or should she be eating THAT? I sometimes dig in to my goodies when I'm stressed. I don't want anyone to know that I run to bad food when I'm sad or stressed out. I feel as though while what I eat is nobody else's business, I just don't want to deal with being lectured or looked down on.
The other reason is because my secret stash makes me feel powerful. Because whenever I feel like it, I can eat it. I have control over something and the fact that no one even knows about it, makes it even more powerful and exciting.
I've never told anyone about my little secret stash. None of the friends that come to my place know about it. Do you hide food? If so, why? Or do you have something else that you hide that helps you deal with your diabetes? DO TELL.
I don't necessarily hide food, but I have hidden the actual eating part...like when I was college and decided to eat directly from the cake in our kitchen without cutting a slice and trying to carb count. As soon as I heard someone coming my way, I immediately ran off like I wasn't doing anything wrong...I've had a few more moments like that, but no one around me seems to judge me if I have a cookie or a reese's pieces! It's nice when people let YOU make the decision and don't make you feel guilty for it.
ReplyDeleteI don't hide food but this weekend I hid in the bathroom to do a blood sugar test before brunch because I knew I was low and didn't want anyone else to comment.
ReplyDeleteFiona, I tend to sneak tests, too. People will stop mid-sentence and wait for my reading to show up on the screen. Depending on who I'm with, I will either get blank stares (inability to interpret if the number is good or bad), looks of approval (if bg within range), or I'll receive advice (maybe you shouldn't finish eating that...). So it is sometimes easier to go into another room and check it.
ReplyDeleteValerie- I feel like I still do what you used to do. I'll take a bite of something and then walk away from it quickly if someone starts coming. I hope I stop doing that.